From C.S. Lewis’s “The Great Divorce”. George MacDonald, a Professor that Lewis greatly admired, is the one speaking. He is Lewis’s adviser, more or less, in the afterlife. Lewis is the narrator.:
“Proofs-and more proofs-and then more proofs again-were what he wanted…in good time, the poor creature died and came here: and there was no power in the universe would have prevented him staying and going on to the mountains. But do ye think that did him any good? This country was no use to him at all….There was nothing more to prove. His occupation was clean gone. Of course if he would only have admitted that he’d mistaken the means for the end and had a good laugh at himself he could have begun all over again like a little child and entered into joy. But he would not do that. He cared nothing about joy. In the end he went away.”
“How fantastic!” said I.
“Do ye think so?” said the Teacher with a piercing glance. “It is nearer to such as you than ye think. There have been men before now who got so interested in proving the existence of God that they came to care nothing for God Himself … as if the good Lord had nothing to do but exist! There have been some who were so occupied in spreading Christianity that they never gave a thought to Christ. Man! Ye see it in smaller matters. Did ye never know a lover of books that with all his first editions and signed copies had lost the power to read them? Or an organiser of charities that had lost all love for the poor? It is the subtlest of all the snares.”
A reminder lest we get so focused on apologetics that we lose sight of why we’re even trying to be apologists.